Strong words but that's what happened this morning. I don't care about me v.much atm but I'm afraid I've lost my dc's love, trust, respect & have now screwed them up in much the same way as I myself was screwed up. I lost it with them this morning, hit one repeatedly, pushed the other, all because the little one (3.6)won't/can't put his shoes & coat on without help. I hate myself so much that I want to hurt myself, end myself but realise this would harm dc even more. I need help.