I'm 18 and my LO is 5months, my partner is 19.
I do everything, clean the flat, look after the baby, cook for him and me. You name it I do it. The flat HAS to be clean so I'm constantly cleaning, cooking or looking after LO. I get no rest or alone time.
If I want a bath I put LO in the pram or car seat and he comes in the bathroom with me, my partner won't watch him. I hardly bathe, most of the time I just clean my hair in the sink.
I hardly sleep 3-4 hours at most, LO won't nap unless he's on me or moving. My partner does none of the night feeds or night waking and screams at me if LO wakes him up. He doesn't work, or try looking but complains about being out of work and feeling like a slob, he sits about all day playing games. We have hardly any money and I'm constantly borrowing off family but that won't stop him from buying 80 odd games.
If LO cries at all I get yelled at, it's my fault if he cries. My partner sleeps until 11 sometimes later, he sleeps on the couch so most of my day is spent with LO and me in the bedroom.
Me and him don't have sex anymore, I'm to tired but when we do I regret it after. He constantly bugs me for sex, he doesn't seem to care at all that I'm tired. On top of being tired I have chronic painful health conditions, I'm constantly in pain and the lack of sleep is making me worse.
I hate this, I wanted to go to uni and study to be a doctor but now my partner says I'm 'not allowed to' because of my health. I'm not allowed to work either so studying would be a waste of time, least that's what he says.
I've talked to him and he changes but then goes back to normal, he does fuck all to help (our families won't help either) and nothing for me or LO. I hate this and strongly regret LO, but I do love LO.
I'm considering either adopting LO out to a better family or leaving my partner. I don't know what to do, where to even begin...