I feel so incredibly awful, I was carrying 6 month old dd facing outwards and tripped over the fucking step on to the landing. It seemed to happen in slow motion, I was stumbling and when I fell on my knees I dropped her on the floor. I'm assuming my brain told me to drop her rather than fall on top of her... I only dropped her about a foot, maybe even less, but she cried a lot and I feel like the worst mother ever right now! I'm just glad she fell on her face on to a soft rug. Could have been worse... that's what I'm telling myself anyway!
Don't even know why I'm posting, just need to vent I think.