It's that time of year, christmas is looming, I can't bare the conversation about where the children are going to be.
I ended it 2.5yrs ago, we stayed in same house for a while so spent Christmas together still, I bought my own place and last year decided to offer to spend it together again for the sake of the children, he chose to spend it with us and he wanted it to be at mine, my parents even invited him for dinner with us etc.
Moving on, Iv met someone else, together about 11 months, very serious (him and his boy are moving in next year) he and his son will be spending Xmas at my house.
My ex has booked to take our children to Lapland mid dec. I feel gutted they're going (jealous I'm can't experience it with them) but know I can never afford to take them so deep down I'm glad they're getting the experience.
Now, am I being unfair to want the girls at mine Xmas eve/day if he's having the fun of 3 days in Lapland the week before? It's the first proper Christmas where we are having to do it separate.
What do other people do?
It's killing me inside just thinking about them not being here but I fully appreciate it's not a good thought for him either.