I'm overwhelmed and can't enjoy being a mum.

[wildlingtribe]

I have four aged five and under, and I am at breaking point everyday. I feel like the shot tests mum everyday. I try but I just hate myself. I lose patience easy. I was a better mum when I had less children. It's only these past few months I have slipped into such a bad place. No help, no support no one to talk to no friends. I don't go anywhere. I hate myself!

Oh dear. Do you work outside the home? Do you get any time to yourself? Do you have a partner?

Four under five is bloody hard work though in any circumstances. How old is the youngest? Could you have PND?

I'm trying to work from home, I don't go anywhere on my own, or have time for myself.

I think depression/self critical/self dislike has always been there but it gets triggered now and again. But more regular.

I wouldn't say it's because of the kids. Elements of parenting do add to it, mum guilt, tiredness, challenges but it's always myself that I get annoyed with or my partner!