I had a decent childhood, lived in a good area, lots of hobbies, decent school, went to uni and have done quite well for myself. I'm one of four. My parents divorced when I was 20. My mum did everything at home, a very traditional mum; my dad had a stressful job and did very little in the house. He struggled to connect with us emotionally and preferred his own space so most nights he sat in his own living room (big house) watching TV with no interruptions. We had everything we needed aside from love I guess. I see him occasionally but definitely not close and likewise with my brothers. I'm not a 'family' person and very envious of people who have very close families they see often.
I have a 23 month old and I fear I'm more similar to my dad than I realised. I just like my own space, I love nap time and evenings so I can sit and read or surf online and I struggle to think of ways to entertain DS. I'm not creative or especially outdoor loving so I have to really try at times to interact. DH is much better with him. I love him dearly of course but I just don't think I'm a good mum. I'm pregnant with #2 as well which I'm happy about and it was planned as we really want DS1 to have a sibling but it's making me think about my crappy parenting skills more than ever.
Does anyone else have to really try?