Memories of DD affecting how I feel at the moment with DS

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My DS is 6 months. At the moment I am thinking back to when DD was the same age a lot of the time & it is making me feel a little bit sad. I went back to work when she was six months old, I started a new job too. I also had loads of trouble getting her to take a bottle so when I returned to work she still wouldn't have much & fed all night instead. My MIL was meant to be doing childcare but let me down the night before I started the new job & I had to find a nursery place for the next week. DD cried her little heart out every time I left her too. I have realised i don't really have any nice memories of this time & I can't actually remember stuff like when DD crawled just all the stress & the tiredness. I know nothing that happened was exactly really terrible, but I feel like it is affecting how I am with DS at the moment as I keep thinking back to it. I was wondering if anyone else had been affected in similar ways?

I think the memories around the birth of a child are particularly strong because you have all the hormones everywhere and it's such a traumatic occasion. As you have a young baby it could be PNA or PND, maybe you should mention it to a health visitor.

I read on here once, someone said they hate posters who spend all their time moaning about their childhoods. 'You're an adult now, get over it'. (Not aimed at me I should add!) For some reason it really made me think about all the time I've wasted dwelling on bad things that have happened to me in the past. I think you have to sort of think 'oh that happened. It was horrible but I was dealing with circumstances (possible beyond my control), the best way I could at the time.' And then just file it away in your mind and concentrate on now. You don't want to waste the present because of something that happened in the past. Sorry if that sounds really clich??d.

I don't think I am depressed. I guess it just surprised me a bit that I have been thinking about it so much as I had previously felt a bit more along the lines of yes it was stressful but I did the best I could. Maybe it is all the hormones making me feel differently! I guess that it's right there is nothing more I can do than focus on the present.