Please don't judge me I don't know where to turn And was hoping for some advice
I'm a mum of a one year old and two year old , my partner works long shifts , my partners parents come once a week to visit , we have never ( me and them ) had a good relationship partners mother calling me fat when pregnant sly comments etc this has always caused arguments between me and my partner as he wont stick up for me , his parents are in their 70s ... He says their just old leave it etc , well last week whilst they was here my eldest went to bite me so I picked him up put him on the naughty step , to when my partners farther got up screaming in my face literally nose to nose I'm a disgusting abusive mother , I raised my voice back saying my children and here and to not shout at me in my own home in front of my children ( by this point I was holding the one year old abs the two year old crying holding my leg , he proceeded to scream at me I told him to get out he said he didn't want to see my 'sh##' kids anyway to which I said that he was not to see them ever again as was being aggressive to me , he stomped out of the house screaming at the neighbours I abuse my children ( I tried to explain in the street it's a naughty step !) to which he got back in my face saying I'm reporting you to social services ! I rang my health visitor crying who told me that I have absolutely nothing to worry about and she would log this all on her system , she even came to see me . I suffered PND and got over it with just talking to my doctor , I keep having nightmares that social services take my children and I can't get the back ( even tho I've been reassured they wouldn't take the naughty step as abuse seriously ) my partner won't talk to me , I think his farther has some mental health issues as he goes to the doctors every day can't stay awake longer than an hour and forgets things and now the anger , his mother is unable todo things due to a clicks hip and walks on sticks , I've told my partner under no uncertain terms are the children to see his farther , he called them sh## to their faces screamed at their mum and was aggressive , my health visitor also thinks it's a good idea he stays away as my children have become clingy and upset after those, my partner won't talk about it and I don't trust him out on his own as think he will take the children to see them ( his farther also slags off my partners ex wife constantly using bad language and i have told him more then once not to say this in front of them , this is why I would know he would slag me off in front of the kids ) I don't trust my partner , am scared of my children to be around there grandad due to his aggressive behaviour , and just feel more depressed than when I did with PND , I don't have many true friends , just a lot of play group mum friends who I can't burden with this , I feel so alone and don't know what todo