I have a history of depression and anxiety and suffered a lot with antenatal depression to the point I was signed off work for most of my pregnancy. Skip forward to now and dd turns 2 in a few weeks and for a while now I have been feeling really low.
I have pretty much hidden it from everyone and so far have done quite a good job as no one has mentioned anything. My hv visits every 3-4 months as they were really worried about pnd.
I don't think it's pnd, I think I am excessively tired as dd has been an awful sleeper since going into a bed at 15 months (she could climb out of the cot so was safer in a bed) and I can't remember the last time I had a full nights sleep. Dp tries but he doesn't hear her in the night when he is home and works nights so isn't here most of the time. I have gone back to work and am really struggling with the juggling and it is stressing me out a lot.
I have struggled to lose weight and since having the coil fitted I have ballooned. We haven't had sex since I was pregnant due to being ships passing in the night and when we are together I take the chance to get an early night to at least get some sleep but I feel like dp just isn't attracted to me anymore. My anxiety stops me asking him because I am terrified of the answer.
It probably sounds silly but little things like I hate him having stubble/beard. He doesn't shave because he "forgets to" but part of me thinks he does it because he knows I won't try and kiss or snuggles d it upsets me.
Am I just being a prat or do other parents feel like this?