Struggling so much.

[daisychain1991]

My DD is 16 weeks, exclusively breast fed, a smiley happy baby the majority of the time. So then, why do I feel so shit! I feel as if everybody's lives would be so much better if I wasn't here.
I look and feel like I have been run over, other mums in baby groups look so well put together, I just feel rubbish. (it doesn't help that dd seems to be sensitive to my makeup, which I have now stoped wearing.)
I am completely in love with DD but know I am just going to screw her up, she deserves so much better than me.
I don't know what i am looking for here by posting just hoping that having written it down makes it better?

My boy is 13 weeks. Sometimes when I'm tired I feel like I'm doing it all wrong and am rubbish. It's not true though, just haven't slept! Are you tired as well?

I also look rubbish - haven't worn makeup since before being pregnant, hair not been cut in months and I keep leaving the house with a boob out.

So tired. So very tired. We co-sleep so in the night I just pop a boob in, but I haven't had a proper sleep well since before she was born. When my husband has her I just lay there thinking 'is she okay?!'
Oh and yes to wandering around with my boobs out. My husband had to remind me the other day that my top was still off as i went to open the door to the in-laws.
Glad its not just me though monkey2014.

The things that you say you're feeling sound a bit like a case of PND and might need treatment - have you mentioned it to a HV or GP? It might just be the whole change you've had to endure of having a baby etc, but if it is PND it's best to nip it in the bud before it becomes a behemoth of a problem. HTH

its definitely not just you :)

Talked to my HV today she's going to come Thursday to have a chat. Well my DH took DD downstairs this morning so I could have a sleep. I woke up to her screaming proper scared crying, DH just could not settle her. Thank god I was just upstairs!