Big wobble about going back to work

[blushingmare]

I go back to work tomorrow (only for 2 days a week), DS is 11mo. I'm sitting here right now, in the middle of the day whilst he has a big long feed (bf) and thinking "what the hell am I doing, this is going to be a disaster"!!

We have no schedule. I've put no work whatsoever into getting him napping well or getting him off the boob. He sleeps "on the hoof" - either in the car or buggy depending on what I'm doing with his older sister. If we're out and about and he's distracted, he might not feed all day, but if we're home and he fancies it he will. Don't think he's ever gone a whole day with no bf though (does drink water/milk well from a cup, but not a whole feed's worth)

This entirely unstructured routine suits us fine. But is it going to be a nightmare for my mum who's going to be looking after them?

Have I created a disaster?!

The fact you have no routine and hrs flexible means he'll adapt well to the changes.

Can you delay return if you wanted to?

No cant delay return - have hadn't maximum one year. I hope you're right!

Have had maximum!

2 days a week isn't much time at all, as sockmatcher says he sounds pretty adaptable. He'll be fine.

Around that age DS decided he couldn't be bothered with drinking expressed milk at nursery any more, he'd just top up when I got home

Thanks for the reassurance. Feel really bad that I haven't prepared him more for the separation too. Just haven't had much opportunity to leave him with other people, so he's been with me 24/7 since birth. And being second child with the novelty worn off/a toddler for others to deal with, it's not even as if other people have been involved much with his day to day care. I mean, he knows my mum well, but he's not used to her doing the stuff I normally do for him.

Just feeling a bit and emotional about it all.

Hey, hope today went well OP!

Thanks slightly. It was ok. I didn't enjoy being back at work much, but he was fine - my mum kept him busy and he ate and slept well. I was too busy to find a moment to pump though and man was I uncomfortable by the end of the day. Really need to try to find some time today!

He will be fine.
Good luck in your return to work.