And I feel like I have little left to give.
Every assessment I have got back has been good, 2-1 or 1st. But I had a clinical assessment that I froze in last week, and literally shaked as I performed the tasks very badly. I then recorded and interpreted the results incorrectly because my flight or fight impulse said finish and get out. I then had a viva that I froze in again for a different module.
Tomorrow I have a very important clinical exam, and my confidence is rock bottom. I have two shots at this, now and an August resit, and then I'm out. I'm terrified of freezing again. I'm usually good at paper exams, but face to face is so hard. I really need a holiday, time to do my hair, read a book for fun, cook a meal for pleasure, spend real time with my dc and dh. Instead it's uni 5 days a week, paid work one day and then one day to cram in study, housework and everything else.
Sorry just needed a moan. Very frightened of failing and wasting so much time and money - no NHS bursary for this course and second degree.