I have two DSs, one is 3.5 and the other is just 1. I made the decision to stop my career to care for them, mainly as I hated my job but also as I can't stand the thought of them in full time childcare, and also my mother who looked after my eldest when I returned to work before the younger was born is now in poor health and I can't expect her to look after two boys.
But I feel so lonely, isolated and that my needs are secondary to everything and everyone else. I seem to never achieve anything, the house is a tip (we have just moved) and I can't always summon the energy to pack us all up,and go out as it seems to be just a struggle. My eldest is at preschool three mornings a week but I still have the younger one to care for, so I never get a break. I miss the days of just being able to get up, have a shower and grab my bag and go somewhere. It never ever happens. I've not had a haircut in over a year. Or been to the dentist. Or anything for me. Me and my DH have not had one night out since our eldest was born as we have two poor sleepers. I have also had ONE full nights sleep in 3.5 years.
I'm sorry for the rant, just hoping someone comes along who feels/has felt the same and might be able to offer a glimmer for me.