I've hit the wall! Join me or mortivate me!

[MishMooshAndMogwai]

I've 3 assignments and a lesson plan to do for next week.

Dp has been on nights this week, is away this weekend and is on nights again next week.

My mum is away this weekend, my dad is in and is just starting some baking with dd to distract her for a bit.

Dd(3) has woken up and screamed through my 2 planned productive nights (Thursday and Friday) then I felt guilty about how little time we spend together so we had a lovely special great late night last night which was great but meant I didn't get any work done.

I've written 1 of these assignments twice- the first time it got handed back and I'd completely missed the point of it so had to rewrite it. I rewrote it and lost the majority of it after a saving mishap so I've got around 2 pages of it left that's done.

We've got the external verifier coming this week so the pressure is being piled on.

I'm 20 weeks pregnant and all I want to do is sleep by 2pm.

The house is an absolute bomb site which doesn't matter but will annoy OCD dp when he comes home.

He has absolutely no sympathy for me as he doesn't understand the whole leaving it to the last minute thing as he doesn't work well under pressure. I usually do but this is too much pressure all at once!

Now I'm worrying about next year when I have a new born.

I can't do any work during the day Monday Tuesday as I am on placement and am teaching on Tuesday so need to finish off my lesson plans for that!

ARGH!

Just needed to get that all out and out there. There seems to be a million obstacles, I'm trying to do everything but not actually doing anything!!

Pheeeeew!

Breathe!
I get myself into states like this with a lot of deadlines at once and then normally my kids or I get ill at the same time.

Break it down, one piece at a time and then you will feel relieved when each one is completed.
Sort out the order you need them finished in, lessons plans for the start of the week, then the essay you wrote and lost should be easy enough as you have already done it once if you can try and remember it.
Plan at what time you are going to do each and then just do it, once you are half an hour in you will probably be so focused you will breeze through it.
I have been known to sit on my bed with DS2 lying on my arm, laptop on my lap, trying to get him to sleep and work at the same time.

Who gives a crap whether the house looks like a bomb has hit it, if your DP has a problem when he is back I would tell him he is welcome to sort it whilst you continue to get your work finished.

Don't worry about this time next year, you have now to focus on, worry about that when you get to it!

This time next week you will feel great. Head down and focus for now, a crap week is worth it to get it all done on time.

I have a note on my PC; 'Don't let the bastards grind you down'. I found it from a motivational thread here on MN and it struck a chord with me. Don't let it beat you, fight back bit by bit.
Good luck!

Thanks night!

Dd is finaly in bed, dp is to be back late so I've got my pjs and the kettle on and I'm cracking the notes out.

Breeeaaaathe! I do breathe and pause and then suddenly it all floods back and I panic again. I'm so bloody annoyed about the lost essay, it was perfect and I was so pleased with it! No use dwelling I suppose....

Brew time!

How is it going today Mish?
Did you get much done yesterday?

Ah yes, lots of tea to get through it, my philosophy completely.
I use it as an incentive, if I finish a paragraph/section or work for half an hour I can have a cup of tea. Easy to please.

Today is not a good day for focusing! The car died its final death and my best friends husband is in custody for assaulting her. Bit of a stressful, emotional day all round! Focusing on my lesson plan for tomorrow and prep for my activity, they're must do's tonight.

Tomorrow was ok, I got a few pages done which was a good start but more of a mental hurdle cleared and I felt pretty good when I went to bed.

Definitely a night for tea and biscuits!