Crying at work... HELP!

[mrsnlw]

Ive been back to work for nearly 2 weeks after 6 months mat leave and I think it's finally hitting me that I am back at work. I am taking up some new tasks and responsibilities at work and I am such a mess.

I cried in the car on the way to work after dropping DS off with my Mum, cried when a customer shouted at me on the phone, I'm missing DS like mad, I feel I am failing him by being back at work and him being cared for my by parents and also nursery.

I really dont know what I can do

You really aren't failing your baby but you are going through a really tough transition and that's why you feel so bad. You clearly adore your son, which shows that you are a great mum, and therefore it's no surprise that you miss him so much.

I bet your mum adores him too and from my experience babies are really well looked after in nurseries. He will not suffer from this care and may well get some benefits from it - for example a really strong relationship with his grandmother.
Try to be kind to yourself at this time; you've spent every moment of DSs life with him until now, it will take a while to get used to it, but you will. You may even find that you get some benefits too - grown up time can be a godsend sometimes - and you'll treasure the time you have with him even more.
I'm sure that all of this sounds trite now and may not make you believe it yet - but I repeat - you are not failing your son, you sound like a fantastic mum. Xxx

Thankyou for your kind works Scaredycatt typed through tears! I knew it would be tough but stupidly thought I had got back to work unscathed until my meltdown today!

I started a new - very fast paced and intense - job when DS was 8 months. I remember vividly having to nip to the toilet for a sneaky cry in my first few weeks. It gets easier, I promise :)

I cried lots when I went back (I am an ugly crier), I was lucky to have a close friend at work who had gone back a few months before me, who understood how I felt (and who kept face wipes and mascara handy!).
It's a crappy time but does get better. X

I agree, it's a very tough time but it does get better. You're bound to feel like a fish out of water for a while. You're not the same person you were when you left, so you need time to adjust. Give yourself time to get into your new routine and try not to be too hard on yourself.

Give yourself time and be kind to yourself.