Hello. Please bare with me and I hope that I'll find some constructive advice. I have 3 children aged 9 and twins 6. Three boys. Their father and I separated after I had an affair in March. He lives in canada and sent me to be with my parents in Florida. This was to give some time and space while he decided what to do. I ended up meeting someone in Florida and a relationship blossomed. I wasn't looking for it, it just came to me. Eventually i went back to canada . I had nowhere to go and was staying in a shelter. My husband had cut off all communication with me. He changed his phone number, blocked me on Facebook and email and refused me any way to see my children. I found out that he spoke with children's aid telling them that I was mentally unstable. He wanted my rights permanently terminated but children's aid said that I should see them after I saw a specific psychiatrist who is on sebatical for several months. They will not allow me to see anybody else. There to this day is no legal motion saying that I have no parental rights to the kids. I had presents for the kids for their birthday that I had to get somebody else to deliver as I had no way to get to them.
He eventually filed for divorce in October but have yet to serve me with any documents including custody/child support. Things are in limbo. I'm currently back in Florida with my boyfriend. His mother passed away, I came to support him for a little while. I found out while here that the divorce was filed for.
I've thought of sending letters to him as I have no other way to communicate. But I know that my kids won't get to see them. I make too much for legal aid and too little to afford a lawyer (Toronto where the family is is very expensive legally).
I feel hopeless. My family (parents) have shut me out as well. I feel very alone.