Is this PND? Please help

[bellerous]

I always worried I'd get PND because I've suffered with depression in the past. I don't ever really feel sad someyhing just doesn't feel right.

When I was pregnant I signed up to and did the NCT classes purely to make friends with other new mums. After all our babies had been born everyone arranged to meet up I said I was going to go but on the day I felt nervous and panicky and didn't go. Every week they meet up and I'm always invited but I can't bring myself to go. Even with my friends who I've known years I cancel at the last minute I get nervous about seeing people and worry they might think I'm a bad mum.

Some days I feel like I can't be bothered to do anything and get annoyed when my baby wakes up from his nap because I just want to stay in bed.

The other thing I'm worried about is I am always worried about something bad happening to my baby like someone hurting him or taking him away. I dream about him being kidnapped or being hurt the dreams are really vivid and they scare me. When I wake up I have to go and check he's still in his cot and ok. He's starting nursery soon and I keep thinking what if one of the staff is a peodaphile.

Just writing this I feel like a psycho but I'm worried I booked a doctors appointment to talk about if all but ended up kit going because I don't want them to think I'm a lunatic.

What age is your baby?

9 months 2 weeks

Yes this sounds like PND. Isolating yourself from social situation, anxiety and worrying that something terrible will happen are all indications you could have PND. You should go to your doctor and discuss what help they can offer you. I assume you are returning to work soon based on the nursery comment? You may find this helps as it gives you some space from being a mum to a young baby.

Good luck xx

Sounds like you are having a tough time. Do your HVs offer a listening service? Mine do, and I have found it really helpful. They can also refer you if you are not comfortable speaking to your GP about it.

You have recognised that you are struggling and that is positive in itself. Do speak to a HCP. They will listen and be sympathetic.

Do you get much support from your OH, or do you have family around you?

Bellerous, I'm sorry you're feeling like this. I had PND and what you're saying does resonate. Have you raised it with your HV? I really would summon up the courage to speak to them, or your GP. I had a lot of intrusive thoughts and they didn't think I was mad. It was difficult saying things out loud, but I'm glad I did. They honestly will be able to help you.

One of the things that really made a difference to me was seeing other people, and I think it would really help to make that step and go to a mums and babies group or similar. If you feel like you're isolated from the NCT group would you consider emailing them and saying that you've found things tough? The fact that they keep inviting you must mean that you haven't burnt your bridges.

Thank you for your responses. I've finally made an appointment with my doctor for next week I know I need to do aomwthinv about it and can't ignore it forever.