eurgh v bad mothering moments tonight

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Feeling really horrid tonight:(
DD (2) has been in nursery all day and I've been home with poorly ds (6months).its been a very hectic day and the past few nights have been pretty much sleepless.
got home after nursery pick up with DD exhausted due to late night yday. Almost immediately she did a wee on the floor and I went completely mad at her (terrible moment number one). Tea,bath and into bed. I know DD just needed some attention and I wanted to spend time with her but ds was shrieking to be put to bed so I in turn screamed at DD to just go to sleep already..que lots of tears etc..finished dealing with ds and went to give DD a big hug and kiss but I'm still feeling so wound up from the evening, and so mean for not being kinder to her

I'll join you in your misery. I went to pick the dd's up from school, one ran away and the other threw a toy at me because they wanted to stay at the after school club. All the way home they were wittering and complaining and when we got in the house it continued. I finally snapped and told them to shut up and piss off.

I have since apologised.

The back door was wide open. Their headmistress lives on the corner of our lane. Mind you she's probably used to hearing me ranting at small children.

We all have those moments. Don't beat yourself up about it. Just learn from it and try not to repeatedly do it again like I do.

I find the end of the day so stressful sometimes. Everyone is tired and winding each other up.
My 3 yo DD weed on the floor today too and I had to leave DD2 screaming in her cot while I changed DD1 and then mopped it up. It's infuriating. We all lose our temper occasionally, or I do [blu but I try to apologise and think about how to diffuse it next time.
Hope your day is better tomorrow.