I scream at the kids, I drink too much, I eat too much and I don't know how to change.

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That's it really. I sound great, don't I? I'm utterly miserable but have so much to be thankful for. Dd is 3.9 and ds about to turn 2. I love them so much but they drive me crazy and I don't cope well. I seem to shout all the time which doesn't work and makes us all upset.

When they go to bed I literally can't wait to open the wine but feel groggy every morning and know I need to stop. Sure that has contributed to 2 stone weight gain in last 12 months which also makes me miserable on so many levels.

We have a lovely home and no money worries. I have a part time job which I love and keeps me sane.

I did have counselling last year to help with anger management and pretended it helped but it didn't .

Relationship with husband is often poor as he struggles to communicate emotionally, we have found two young children hard, he is stressed and I hide how much I drink. I probably resent his perceived freedom too but really he just goes to work.

I don't know what I expect from this, maybe a flaming and to be told to get a grip but just need to get it out.

I must say that is actually very funny. Mumsnet as alternative therapy! Cheeky bugger. I would go back if you feel like that again, you might need something only a GP can prescribe.

In the meantime try and spend some time just relaxing with the dcs. Don't get too involved, just ask them about what they're doing and give them positive attention. Start with just 5 minutes for each child every day and build up. It will feel strange at first and they might not feel a bit suspicious for a while but it doesn't last long.