How do you find going from 2-3 children? (3.5 and under)

[littleraysofsunshine]

I've found my patience isn't as good, maybe because I don't get a lot of time to relax and recharge.

I feel like I am different person. I feel so low some days as I am constantly being demanded on. Then I feel bad that I'm not keeping up in housework, then that makes me feel worse where it's a mess. Can't ins anything, I stupidly or dd1 into preschool so I have a school run twice a morning with a 3.5, 22m and 10 week old. Demand breastfeeding which I love but feel I don't get to enjoy it as such this time, I feel like I never have time to enjoy them all, and individually. I used to be more playful and chilled and not use a shitty tone all the time. It's really destroying my relationship too.

I just feel like I'm failing. Health visitor says a little bit of PND, and PTraumatic stress from a family situation in 2011/12. And no support after dd2. Maybe it's back logged. I just feel like I dislike what I am.

I'm moody, snappy and cold. I have amazing days. 90% of the time but the bad days are awful where I just cry and the kids behaviour sees changes too. Whinging or crying lots.

Dd2 is teething bad too which doesn't help. Dd1 is always wanting stimulated, no naps.

My dp and dad say I put to much on myself and expect too much. Both of myself and sometimes of the kids. Mess I usually are chilled about but lately I get pissed off at dds if spilling juice. Why????

It's as if I've lost myself an can't find my way back to happy, and just not getting so uptight about small things. It's such a horrible feeling. I take it out on dp where he's the first adult I see at the end of a day sometimes.

Am I expectin too much? What was it like for you? Or is like for you ?

Title should say did*

Dd2 ( 22m) is now refusing wearing a nappy but also isn't keen on the potty. So toilet training along with demand feeding having baby on boob and running upstairs should be fun!

I remember dd1 was dry by the age of two. It took about two months if that but it was over the summer. A lot easier.

I haven't got a third but I have often looked after another and from that paltry experience I'd say yes, it's a lot more work. Just as two are a lot more work than two times the first one, if you see what I mean.

It's so early for you, ten weeks in, I think you need to make a conscious effort to be really, really kind to yourself until things start to feel more manageable. Can you put your second one in play group at two years? It's not that far off and would give you some time with the baby.

Hope you're feeling brighter. You've just got a lot on your plate, it's not you, it's the situation.