Hi all,
I know this is kidn of weird to post on a Mums' forum, but I feel now that I'm 28 in June, I'm beginning to experience the mothering instinct. I know mos tlikely you ladies can't relate as this is a parenting fourm, but I am looking for support.
Background: I was born blind, but I never thought this would keep me from parenting. In fact, when I was a child and teen I Always edreamt of getting y first child at 27. Life went quite well until at age eighteen, I burned out. Well, life didn't go well before then, but that's beyond the scope of this topic. Long story short: at age 21, I was ddiagnosed with autism and later a severe mental illness (borderline personality disorder to be exact). I had a mental crisis in 2007 and landed in the psychiatric hospital. Nearly 6 1/2 years later, I'm still institutionalized. This obviously means no pregnancy or kids for me. Oh, I am married and physically fertile I think, so that's not the problem. I am beginning to realize that, now tha this magical age of 27 is here, I think I may never have kids.
The reason I post this to a parenting board is not only because I badly want to be a parent, but aso because being childless and likely to remain this way, makes me feel particularly left out. I don't have any offline friends (other than my husband) and in the online community, maybe it's just me but see Mummies everywhere. I do seek it as in this forum, but then again, Mumsnet and other more exclusive communities are also among hte top women's communities. I think maybe I'm just grieving. My husband is pretty much childless by choice, and I thought I was too for I am physically fertile, but I would badly like to parent.
I'm sorry if no-one can support me or if this is not appropriate here.