I know this will irritate some, as it would have done me a year ago but here I am anyway. I have a 3 yo son and 1.5 yo girl. I HAD to go back to work after 4 months with both and have resented it ever since. I was so lucky that my mum could and wanted to look after them. Seeing my misery, hubby got on it, did a full time conversion degree in 2 years while working full time and bagged himself a much better job so that we could afford for me to be with the kids more.
So, now I can quit but, guess what? I'm not sure. My job is rewarding and fulfilling and not too stressful most of the time. It is school hours and term time only. I would never get this job back if I left and had a change of heart. I'm thinking that long term I want to be able offer my kids the chance do a lot of travel and activities ...etc and the money and hours would be good for that. I am also worried that I will lose all sense of myself if I give up work which I know is sad but true, so I can't escape it. Hubby doesn't really mind either way as long as I'm happy. I miss my kids like mad but I do find being with them both, full time, hard work because they have such different needs.
I guess I just want a bolt form the future to tell me how I'll be feeling in ten year's time with either choice because I can't seem to get any perspective on this and I am going round in circles. Part time is a possibility but it would be a massive demotion in career terms.