Feeling disengaged and unsure about my bond with DD

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I have had a few things on my mind and a lot of housework to do. I have left DD to entertain herself (She's 6 months) for chunks of time today as well as carry her about, but not interacting much at all. She was very happy about bathtime and while I was bathing her my mind drifted into my worries about going back to work and she started crying and crying. Really crying. I couldnt dress her as she was looking at my face and screaming. I feel like i'm a little bit low, distracted and blank, unable to interact. It really scares me that this is going to have a negative impact on her mental health. She almost seemed listless at times. The days that I feel good we have a lovely time. I'm scared that I can't sustain this and will become confusing for her. I spoke to the Health Visitor, she came to see me today, She said i'm doing a great job and not to worry, it's o.k to switch off. But is it. Really? I tie myself in knots after these bad days. I have friends visiting tomorrow and am worried that I'm so disengaged and that i lack 'emotional warmth'

Start afresh tomorrow, take one day at a time. You cannot be top of your game all the time. Did you have good days and bad days before your DD? Of course you did. It's the same now. Have a break too when you can. Being on your own with a baby all day is tough.

I felt like you describe for months after giving birth. Not in crisis, just a little low, flat and detatched. HV said don't worry, you're doing a great job.

Suddenly my mood crashed through the floor. I went to see my GP who prescribed sertraline. It has made a huge difference to me. I had struggled to bond with my DD and now I am absolutely overwhelmed by how much I love her. It feels like all the colour in the world has been turned back on again. I didn't realise how depressed I had become until I started feeling better.