please, please read the first thread. Flipping, freezing, sterilizing PFB.
I have not laughed that much in a long time. Mainly because it brought back memory's of what it was like with your precious newborn. Your post does the same!
Yes you are normal. I felt exactly the same and only my fear of him been an only child and having no siblings when we died made me try for another when he was 2. I fell PG right away and I was terrified I would not love the new baby the same. He would be distraught, neglected, feel unloved. I cried alot and then my beautiful DD came along I could not believe it - I absolutely adored her and what's more - so did DS, still does.
Yes there was times of jealousy. First few weeks when I was constantly breast feeding. DH would let me take him out just the two of us regularly though. Just to the park or even the shops but it stopped me feeling so overwhelmed by how much I loved them both and worried about lack of attention. This fades in time.
My DS could not be without DD. The are 6 and 4 now and they can't wait to see each other when DS gets back from school. They like sleepovers in each others bedrooms and have so much fun together. We now have DS2 (DC3) who was a 'surprise' and is now 17 months.
Again, when I found out I was PG I cried. How can I love another like my two? What if this baby destroys their relationship, ruins dynamics? How can I give 3 enough attention. So over that too. Id be the same if I had a forth, fifth, sixth!
I could now not imagine life without my little gang. DS1 and DD adore their little brother and he adores them. Watching them all together having so much fun makes my heart burst. I have overwhelming times now of how much I love them.
Yesterday DS2 was getting upset because he didn't quite have the strength to push along the floor in his ride along car. DD was trying to help him so she ran upstairs, fetched a little pink ride along she had at his age, asked me to tie her car to his. She then spent nearly an hour, patiently driving him round and round the hall and kitchen while he waved at us like a visiting Royal. Imagine if I hadn't had them - makes me sick thinking about it. More to the point, my DS1 would have no where near the rich life he has surrounded in all of this fun and love from his little sis and bro!
As soon as he gets in from school he will hug them both tightly then they will disappear upstairs to build a den or jump on their bed.
That feeling you have, it's exactly the same with all of your children and it stays.