Another non event day

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I have a 5 month old, dc number 2. Anyway for some reason with dc2 I just haven't got the get up and go. I don't feel depressed or anything just lacking in motivation. Can't be bothered meeting up with people and think about what I need to do but get one thing done at best.
I'm tired as still being woken up to 5 times a night. However feel life is just passing in a haze and will be back at FT before I know it and then regret not making the most of this time. My other dc is at nursery 3 days a week so not like I'm overwhelmed having both of them all the time.
I'm grateful and happy to have my lovely kids but feel a bit out of character with this.
Anyone else go through this? Please reassure me it's just a phase ;).
Right, back to thinking about getting through pile of junk on dining room chair for filing......

Hmmm I know you say you're not depressed but the description of feeling in a haze and having no motivation is often a sign of 'mild' depression. Anyway, so long as you are feeling happy and well in yourself, do you think it might be the sleep deprivation getting to you. Being woken up 5 times a night is hard and inevitable it affects how you feel and how much energy you have. With DS2 he didn't sleep for more than an hour and a half at a time at this age and I was on my knees every day just going through the motions of being a mum but achieving very little. I look back at it now as being a bit like a 'fog'. It was just sheer exhaustion.

Also, never underestimate how much being around 2 young children can sap your energy even if one of them is at nursery part time! My DS1 is at full time school (obviously it's summer holidays now) but even normally I feel knackered and just drag myself through the day sometimes.

I don't think it's uncommon. I have felt a complete lack of get up and go with DS2 to be honest and I do feel guilty for it. With DS1 we went out loads, I talked to him constantly. With DS2, so much of my time is taken up with time managing everything, shool runs, cooking, cleaning, washing twice as many kids clothes, paying attention to DS1. It's certainly harder this time round.

DS2 is now 19 months and it's undoubtedly easier now he sleeps through. When he was 5 months I felt like a zombie.

Hi Tweet we 'spoke' on another thread about work. Thought about you the other day and wondered how you were getting on.

I really feel for you. I wouldn't underestimate the lack of sleep. 5 times a night sounds so tough. And even though your other DC is in nursery for a couple of days you are still managing 2 children - washing, feeding, social activities etc.

My DD is 2 months and she has less attention than DS was given at her age. However she does benefit from the fact I am less anxious than before/ a bit more experienced.

I also think my desire to do things with him was driven by need - mainly mine to meet people. This time around I know lots of parents, many with DC2/DC3 so the incentive to seek out new people isn't there.

Are you able to catch up with sleep? Even at the weekend/or v early nights etc? That to me is the most striking thing about your post. I know I feel horrid if I am too sleep deprived.

Thank you both for getting back to me. I think most of my feelings are based on the sleep deprivation. There's also the guilt about going back to work FT. I agree with your expression about the fog, meandtheboys. It seems like the days just drift by! I am happy to be with dc's though and I don't have negative thoughts, perhaps some anxiety on occasion when I feel I've achieved nothing/not done enough with them.

MrsMargoaleadbetter, I am very touched at your remembering me and that you gave me a thought. That is very considerate. You will know my anxieties regarding work from that previous post. I'm sure things will slot into place, it's just finding the new way of doing things I guess. I didn't meet that many people the first time, tried but didn't seem very good at it. I wish I knew a couple of mums in a similar position to me but I'm not really putting my self out there that much as feel quite self conscious after trying and failing last time! Hope that things are going well with your DD and you're fairing better with sleep then I am!

Tweet I was touched you got in touch to say thanks.

Sorry you struggled with friendships last time. It is such a lottery though isn't it? I was lucky in that I made a couple of friends last time - although only in touch with one now - but I also had a few experiences including the woman who seemed to use me to sell at! I also had some close friends from college who had kids 9 months before me, they fell in love with motherhood and I felt really alienated from them as I didn't feel like they did.

You really do have to get yourself out there and be brave, which is really difficult when you don't feel very sociable and you are dog tired.

I would also say that the closest friendships I have made are with the mums of DS's friends that he 'chose' at nursery and then at school this last year. In the last year at nursery there were a few parties and I got a chance to talk to the parents there etc. I guess the friendships developed more naturally across time as I saw them at parties/nursery gatherings etc.

Are there are mums at your DC1's nursery you could invite out for a playdate, esp if they have a DC2 too? They might be 'warmer' than going to a playgroup?

I am in NE London if that is anywhere near you and you fancied a meet up.

DD ok ta. Sleep isn't too bad - for now!