Namechanged. I have utterly utterly had enough. I don't know if this is depression or I am fed up but I just don't know if I can take it anymore. I am a shit mother - I am aggressive and awful because I am just so bloody tired. DH and I just seem to argue over who is more knackered all the time. DD1 is at nursery two days which helps, but her behaviour the rest of the time is just awful. Tantrums, fighting. I look round and see other perfectly behaved three year olds and wander why me. No one else seems to struggle this much. DS is 8 months and has turned from a fantastic sleeper into a nightmare. He was ill about 8 weeks ago and it is just constant streaming nose, coughs etc, I think it's teeth but the docs just say he is struggling to shift virus. Sleep wise he is up between 2-4 times a night and is impossible to settle without milk. Getting milk and food into him during day is constant battle and he just grizzles all the time. DD1 is waking earlier and earlier - 5.15 this morning, won't stay in her room without tantrumming and waking DS - gro clock and blackout blinds not working. As a result I am snappy and rough with her and I am just not the mother I want to be. I don't smack but I am rough and shout. I don't know why I am posting this I just need to get it down. I feel like such a failure - I read a thread earlier in the week about enjoying them when they are small - I am not enjoying anything and dread to think how they are missing out.