Knackered and nearly lost it today

[Purplecatti]

I am exhausted. I have a 15 week old baby who for the last 2 weeks has resisted all naps. All. I generally have a screaming baby from 11 until gone 6ish when she will go to sleep.
I've tried darkened rooms, swaddling, trying to let her self settle, rocking, sleeping on me, anticipating the first yawn. But she resists and is sooo pleased with herself for throwing off the tiredness. up until last week she would sleep in the pram but not any more.
She is breastfed and still waking for feeds every two hours and she will take up to an hour.
I am so tired I keep dropping things.
I don't have anyone to help out either, my lovely parents live 200 miles away and my in laws are near but awful. They think tgey are helpful but they are not. OH isn't usually home until bedtime or once she's asleep.
I could do the no naps thing if she slept at night or vice versa, but both??? I am a snappy tearful mess!
She used to nap 45 minutes at a time.
What am I doing wrong???

Nothing! Many small babies are just rubbish sleepers, and lots of people reckon there's a sleep regression around 4 months. It is so hard. It's a bit of a cliche on here but have you tried her in a sling? That was one thing that saved my sanity with dd, I'd walk, she'd eventually sleep, I'd sit in the park and eat ice cream and read a book while she snoozed...

It may not help you to know, as it seems a long way away, but my dd was a dreadful sleeper at the same age (as you describe but she wouldn't settle til midnight as well...). We co slept for a while which helped, but by a year old she was happy to sleep in her cot at night and going to bed around 7 (which felt like a miracle!). Naps probably settled into a kind of pattern around 6 months. I have to confess I spent a lot of time sitting on the sofa feeding her while watching crap telly in her first few months...

I have a sling, wrap thing but was, ahem, rather shredded giving birth so can't carry around my heavy baby in it its too painful still.
She goes to bed like a lamb between 6 to 8. Sometimes she gets funny around 5am and that's when I'll take her in with us. She also has massive talking sessions around 3am which she does settle herself back to sleep afterwards

So does she essentially sleep through? It might be that she is just taking time to adjust to that. My LO is a wonderful night sleeper but became really resistant to day naps. Half an hour settling for 15 minutes kip! She does sleep pretty well now but that is purely her. I really do sympathise though - from about 4pm my 13 week old becomes increasingly whiny

However she always sleeps when put in her car seat and rocked. I do this at friend's houses when we don't have all the sleep paraphernalia that she needs in the house.

I had this. In the end I got her sleeping in a wrap sling during the day but that still meant I couldn't get any sleep... I don't really have any advice, we did some sleep training around 18 weeks which helped her sleep through but she still resists naps at a year old... So all I can say is hang in there, it does get better xx