Exhausted mum. advice please

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Im at breaking point.
I am a single mum. My partner and I split 5 weeks ago due to his controlling attitude and he hasnt been bothered with the children since . Its like hes disappeared and no longer loves them...thats how it feels anyway.
Our dcs are 2.2 and 10 months. I also have a 9 and an 11 year old from a previous relationship and their dad has always been a good dad and sees them every other weekend.
my parents are on holiday for xmas they booked a week abroad before me and partner split. They have helped with shopping as I have no car and have tried to be there for me.
my baby is a terrible sleeper, I have nobody to ask for restbite (my parents wont look after them) but I know and have been told im a great mum but no matter how much I love being a sahm everyone needs a break right?
My 2 yr old is in nursery 2 mornings a week and my older 2 are at their dads but my son is hard workand I never get a minute away from him.
I havnt been out socializing or done anything for me for as long as I can remember and its all just wearing me down.
I dont want my kids in care and I dont want to fail them.
Its just me and younger two this xmas. Bro and sil will pop in to say hi tomorrow.. Due their duty .
To make matters worse I have a very underactive thyroid and I feel the medication im on just isnt doing anything.
is somebody there just to tell me ill get through this? Im so tired. Thanks

You will get through this. Its very early days and you haven't had a chance to find your feet. Can you get a nursery place for your little one even just one morning a week so you've got time to bank on thats your own?

I was on my own with my eldest two when they were 1 and 3. Its hard work, but it is rewarding when you're rested enough to look back and remember.

I was really strict about quiet time after lunch. I used to put a DVD on in their room (terrible parenting apparently ) and they would either sit and watch or nap. It meant i could get one or two things done like ironing, phone calls or even just get my own head down for half an hour.

thanks misformum. Its difficult as they sleep at different times but will try the quiet time routine. My son is my baby. The only boy and he is so different from my girls in that he is constantly winging and my once happy relationship with my toddler is suffering as I only have me to do it all . Would love to spend more quality time with her.
I have thought about nursery but it seems a cop out and my dd went there and I had to take her out as they were not providing adequate care. Also my son is sooo sensitive he would probably scream the whole time.
I thought about getting away from these 4 walls. Does anyone know any single parents retreats? I have money saved up for a little holiday but no transport or ideas. X

Have you thought about contacting Home-Start? They offer support and friendship to parents and families who need a little help for whatever reason.

The help and support they can give is fantastic, right down to just watching your LO in your home so you can have some time to yourself. They can also help with transport for shopping, accessing services, giving advice - or just giving you someone to talk to.

I really think they will be able to help you. This isn't a permanent situation, things WILL get better - and Home-Start may be able to help that happen sooner and support you in finding ways to make things better for all of you.

They are simply brilliant.

Link here