While I was pg I suffered badly with antenatal depression and after an emergency section I also suffered post natal depression! I denied it until my LB was 9 months when I finally got help! I didnt really bond with my LB until he was 8-9 months (which still haunts me) I met my partner when my LB was 6 wks and he has brought our son up since! They have an amazing bond (which I am so grateful of) My childs biological dad doesnt want to know despite several attempts!
Lately I have gone back to University while LB is at a private nursery and with his Daddy! Hes always been a Daddys boy and now does not want to know me AT ALL! He wont show me any affection! If hes sick or upset he cries for Daddy! Ive tried taking him out for the day just myself and LB but he jus cries for Daddy! This afternoon he woke from a nap and I picked him up - he got hysterical! Cried until he was sick because he wanted Daddy! Its killing me! Im jelous of my partner and Im starting to feel like a failure! What have I done wrong :((