On my own for bedtime tonight for the first time since DS2 was born five weeks ago.
I put DS1 down first and he went down beautifully and I was ready to feed DS2 and busy patting myself on the back when I realised DS2 had a leaking nappy and needed a full change. DS2 started objecting loudly to being changed when he was expecting a feed. DS1 next door joined in and started crying hard and begging to get up. I tried continuing with DS2 with both getting hysterical and me feeling very stressed, eventually losing my temper with poor DS1 and pounding angrily into his bedroom and shouting at him to stop crying and being naughty. I repented straight away and apologised but, instead of his usual singing or mischief making, he's lying in his cot looking very sad and subdued 
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I feel dreadful for losing my temper. I tried to explain to him that he had had his stories and cuddles and that then it was DS2's turn but it all came out sounding like DS2 was more important than him. Am I over-thinking it or am I a crap parent?