Being stupid but can't help it.

[FateLovesTheFearless]

I am about to start college at the end of the month, it's been a long time coming and I am delighted.

But I am starting to feel quite upset about my youngest going into nursery. I know it's stupid and loads of mums do it, I think I just have a bit of precious youngest syndrome!

My other three, two are in school and my ds1 has been in the usual 2.5 hour nursery for the last year. My youngest however, has never been in nursery at all and will be going straight into fulltime. I don't know how he will react to it and I keep worrying that he will be really upset.

I suppose because he is my youngest that it suddenly feels like a huge step. Letting go of my baby as such. Now it's getting near, it's harder than I thought. We have been together every day, all day, until I split with stbxh and he goes to stay every other weekend. It's different though as thats his dad.

Can anyone relate to this or am I just being totally and utterly ridiculous and need to get a grip? I am sure it's the latter but getting a grip isn't really working!

It's normal to feel separation anxiety when you have to leave your child for the first time especially if you anticipate that the child will find it hard too. Lots of nurseries do 'trial' days to get a child used to nursery before he/she officially starts so might be worth looking into that to put your mind at rest. It might help to remember all the positive things she will get out of being with other children but don't completely ignore your instincts - we mums have them for a reason!

I can relate, having just put DS2 into nursery...It is hard :( I can't believe that barring a miracle lottery winI will have no more babies!

I feel guilty as I know that as soon as there is a ft place available he will be there for 5x8 hours we won't have all our lovely mornings pottering together while DS1 is in school.

That said, I won't miss the childcare juggling we are doing at the moment, and I will have a tiny bit of time alone to do sport and such.

I'm trying to focus on the positives, as jac said. For DS2 the settling in period is going well so far-at our nursery in France they take it very frustratingly slowly, but this week he will be napping there and I am not convinced that it is going to go well.

I am always 'talking up' nursery to him-he has his little 'big boy' bag to take in, and his photo by his peg, I say how much fun he will have etc etc, but I am also a teeny bit heartbroken.

Perfect second born or what??!