All feels too much sometimes???

[ledkr]

I have had a crap day and just have that feeling that I want to get in the car and drive away never to return.

I cant keep on top of the housework or washing and my kids just seem to do nothing for themselves at all,the baby has made whingeing the soundtrack to my day and wakes at 5am,dd1 wants to do her after school activities but has to be nagged to get ready to go to them and ds2 is seriously ill but has to be nagged to attend appointments and get or take his meds.

I also work part time which I love.

It just all feels like too much,i am so tired of being everyone elses brain,arms and legs.I considered leaving today just to show them all how shit I felt and how much i do for them.

I am not getting any younger and had cancer years ago so I shouldnt be getting this stressed really.

Sorry to go on,ill be ok tomorrow it just gets too much and feels good to write it down.

Can you escape for a bit? Sometimes just a few hours of being pampered or having a long bath help redress the balance.

Do you have a DP/ DH that you can say I need some me time too?

I'm no saint it all gets too much for me sometimes and I'm not good at taking me time. When I do, I'm better energised for everyone else and better able to handle the world.

Do you/ can you pour a big glass of something and put your feet up after bedtime?

I do relax in the evening but the evenings are very short when you are up at 5 as I have to go to bed early to get enough sleep.

Dh is good but he works really long hours and shifts too so for example ill be on my own all weekend and then be at work Monday Tues and Thursday.

I had a break last weekend when he took dd2 to visit his parents for the weekend,it was lovely.

I think its a vicious circle when you are to tired to enjoy life then it becomes a bit of a drudge,all work and no play.

Yep I get that. We have early starts and sometimes DS1, who's got ASD, can't settle so I loose the evening.

I'm trying to have a game plan of small things in the future that are for me to look forwards to.

it is a vicious circle and some days it seams like a trap, fortunately others it doesn't.

I am currently a third of the way through myfriday night large glass of wine, having had a brief bath. For now, this is a good thing to have in my routine.

In your fantasy life, just for a moment forgetting practicalities, what play would you be up to?

Well i used to like to party a bit and I had planned to move abroad with dd untill i met dh and had dd2. I doubt ill be doing anything like that.

I think in my fantasy id like to be sat in a clean tidy house with a glass of pinot and a good film Instead I am sat in a messy house with a demanding dd and a baby who needs to be put to bed and no wine as I was meant to be "being good"

This is one reason why we are sticking with 1! You are doing an amazing job bringing up 3 little ones and I couldn't even hope to do what you do, I am sure it will get easier when your littlest one is a little older...that's probably not helpful right now but just wanted to say hang in there as I bet you are doing an amazing job

I'm feeling the same this week. I've finished my part time studying til Oct and at first I thought 'great, no pressure for a while, my evenings back'. But my little DS was very ill over the weekend and had a stay on paediatrics. He's ok, back to his cheeky self but I just feel like crying since it happened, I just can't seem to handle stress when it creeps upon me without warning. My DD is starting school in Sept which I'm somewhat apprehensive about. My DP is working 24/7 so I feel very alone with the kids all the time.

We have only lived where we're living for a yr, the other day my DD said, 'mummy who are your friends?', ha, I couldn't answer her! I feel like moving back to my home town. Sorry to hijack!

NO WINE! That's like mental torture. I aim for one tidy room, so when I crash on the sofa it's not covered in toys and baby stuff.

I know your name, I'm generally really bad with names, have you been on BIWI's weight loss thread?

Yes I was a failure i have wine now,pink wine,its nice. I am happy.

Bbay played merry hell at bedtime,dd1 went to help and basby headbutted her in the nose

She is asleep now and i am tipsy and have belly full of lasange nom nom.

The world will crash down again at 5am I am sure.

baby obviously,not basby or bbay

Hey Ledkr,
Sorry your feeling a bit shite. I don't think your early mornings with dd2 are helping at all. She really is a random early water isn't she? Ds2 is waking at 5.30am at the moment but luckily he seems to doze on and off then until 7 when I get him up.
My only advice would be to always have some time to yourself to look forward to. You know how I like my Sundays with the boys at the in laws! I know you can't do this while dh is at work all weekend but maybe work out that every weekend he's off he takes dds out on his own abd you get time to yourself.
Oh nd give up on the tidy house, ain't gonna happen again until our broods have left the nest!

Three children, one of whom is a baby, is hard work! Hang in there, it really does get so much easier when they are older (have the T-shirt).

My first reaction to reading your post was - cut the after school activities. We used to do lots with three children incl baby and it was so much easier when I dropped some.

farrow Im afraid I also have the t shirt. Boys are 26 25 22 and dd's 10 and 1.I really have been doing this too long tbh 2nd marriages have a lot to answer for imo.

Dd is a really talented dancer and loves it.I just need her to take some responsibilty for rushing to get her there after school.

Dh and i were talking about giving her a card with instructions for what needs to be done to get out on time ie, eat drink get ready leave by x time.

Oh no mamaledkr you superwoman you can't be posting this!! What hope is there then for mere mortals like me?
I have no answer, is there an answer?
Have some more pink wine.