How close have you been to just walking out of the door and not coming back?

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Because i'm quite close to it now. Dd, aged 3, is currently screaming because we can't find a tiny piece of paper with a drawing on for her, Ds, aged 5, is winning because he wants to watch TV ratherthan going to school. Me and Dp are snapping at each other because of the noise and stress, and this is just a normal every day morning.

Yesterday I drove to work sobbing because I'd ended up yelling at Dd on the way to nursery because she was screaming at me to puck her toys up from the floor of the car while I was driving. I ended up having to leave her at nursery crying with one of her carers.

Feel everything is getting on top of me, Do tried to help by doing an online grocery shop which was great but he left out loads of things so now I have to go to the supermarket at lunchtime anyway.

Is it normal to be feeling like running away from it all?

Argh bloody phone! DS is whining not winning. DP did an shop, not DO!

"Is it normal to be feeling like running away from it all?"

Common but not normal, if you understand the distinction. It sounds like you need to take a step back, take a break and/or reorganise the way your house works, or you risk going from stressed into depression.

After the children are in bed tonight, sit down with your partner and try to come up with a better way to start the day. Some things that help the start of the day go more smoothly are.... going to bed earlier and getting up half an hour earlier so that you are less tired and rushed; laying out clothes, packed lunches, breakfast things etc the night before; not switching on the TV at all - too distracting; instigating a sticker reward chart for the children; giving oldest child responsibility for simple tasks... If you can make those kinds of things work between you and try very hard not to snipe, you may feel better.

I feel like this a lot, but it's buried deep deep down because I have no other option. I've convinced myself nobody else could step in and look after my Dc's. I did phone a HV for a home visit and go see a GP out of desperation though. Got me nowhere as there was nothing they could 'diagnose' e.g depression. One of them pretty much said it's normal and my standards are too high so I'm too hard on myself.
We got a cleaner, got the online shopping sorted (I plan a mini top up shop half way through the week to sneak in some treats!), and I go out a couple of evenings a week to excercise.

If you're having a bad day then yeah. It really is. I get like this every now and then - its hard being a mum but mostly it's great.
I bet if you did walk out you would be back within half an hour