Okay, A while back I thought I had finally reached a stage where it was easy and i was enjoying it most of the time, but now I am having far more bad days than good and most of the time feel im heading for a nervous breakdown. I usully find I have had enough within 5 minutes of waking.
I keep half wishing that the children lived with someone else I get excited whe half term approaches thinking of all he ovely thing i will do with them then spend the whole time breaking up arguments , maybe i should stop planning things and ake each dy as it comes.
Anyway I just cant cope anymore. 4 children eldest 8 youngest nearly 4, 3 have special needs, at least the 5 year old ha finally been recognised as having problems now - after I ended up in a and e after one of his tantrums. I have tried parening courses to help cope with his behaviour but no help. Homestart first said they had no money to train volunteerss then eventually got me one of their paid staff o help for a few weeks, then aid i didnt need help. I referred mself again recently and said money not a problem just didnt have anyone, arent helpig anybody