PND with first child - having more?

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My DD is 20 months and for the first 7 months I had PND, but it was only diagnosed late on. I am okay now, enjoy motherhood mostly and simply adore my wee pal of a DD. But I just don't think I can do it again. I did always imagine myself having 2 or more, but now the reality is here, I am perfectly content with DD and just don't think I could put my DH and DD through another bout of PND/newborn misery.

I really just wondered whether those of you who had PND first time round, was it an easy decision to stick with one or have more?

My situation was very similar to Puddle. Suicidal, the lot. I was wary of ever getting pregnant again ( Clearly not that weary as I fell pregnant with twins) but I did and I was fine. I'm still amazed now at how 'normal' I feel so don't be disheartened. I guess second time around you feel more confident ad know the signs.

Terrible typos- sorry! iPhone...

Had horrendous PND with first, then got even worse in my second preg despite being full of drugs. Went bad again after second birth. So not the best example! I am so glad I went for it though despite the REAL suffering- DS2 is amazing and I feel so blessed to have him. Wouldn't change it for the world although it was a big risk to my life really. I won't lie- there is a big risk you'll have it again- the question is, can you endure it??

DH and I thought we were done after having DS. We had planned 2/3 but I never, ever wanted to put myself and my family throught that hell again and risk my children ending up with divorced parents or a dead mum. DS now 2.4 and I'm unexpectedly 4 months pg with DC2. I'm still trying to get my head round it but I have had several frank discussions with my GP, midwife and consultant and won't hesitate to go on anti-ds the day I start losing it, should that be the case again. Hopefully it won't be but I feel that I'm in a better position to get help this time round.