can you remeber?

[CharliesMummyMeg]

being pregnant?
giving birth?
the first year?

I'm not good at remembering anyway but im so glad i did a pregnancy diary! I remember (sometimes) being pregnant but i carnt remember silly little things. I remeber giving birth and some of the first year is a blur......

how about you?
And do you ever feel like you have let your kids down?

I can remember but a lot of it is better forgotten.

And not yet..... I think that will come later.

Nagoo did you have a hard time?
I had some home troubles - fella going back to his mums etc etc being on my own...

I do remember being pregnant with both of them quite clearly. I remember my maternity leave with ds very fondly (esp the first four weeks when he hadn't been born - mid summer, nothing to do but mooch - heaven :o)

I remember giving birth to both too, but then I had an elcs for both. I was quite with it and clear headed as a result. I clearly remember thinking ds was the most beautiful baby I'd ever seen when they plonked him on my chest. Looking back at the pictures he was obviously hideous in that newborn still covered in blood and vernix way. He was geniunely very beautiful about an hour later when he was cleaned up and a bit less purple and more pink :o

I remember staring at dd's hairline, she has such a perfect hairline at the front (ds in contrast has all sorts of swirly bits which play havoc with his fringe) I also remember her spectacular wrinkly purple hands and her so so dry skin (15 days late and hauled out of her mummy reluctantly).

The first year I'm less clear about. I think it's the sleep deprivation. I have a kind of sequence of still frames for both of them really. DS and I napping in bed together every afternoon. Bfing dd in the park in the middle of the coldest winter for 150 years. That kind of thing. Even now when I look at photos of ds as a baby it's hard to reconcile that it's the same child, even though it was only 4 years ago. I'm very glad I have lots of video footage of them both.

I think of dd as such a baby, but she's the same age now that ds was when I had her, and he felt sooo grown up then.

There was nothing terrible happened to me, IYSWIM but I think if it was so vivid in my memory I would not have had another one!

I think time does a good job of 'rosying' it all up. You forget the pain, the sickness, the discomfort, the sleep deprivation the hormonal rages, the broken vagine

I look at Baby Goo and try to remember DS at her age, but it is hard, as your 'new version' of the child takes the place of the baby in your mind. I agree about the video. I have loads of DS but not so much of Baby Goo. I am definitely busier this time.

What does IYSWIM mean hon?
I feel abit broken after my OH left us after ds was 5 weeks old and came back about 8 weeks later due to arguments - do you think time will heal that feeling?

if you see what I mean...

OP I think you shoud do 2 things,

1. get a new nickname nothing to do with real names
2. post in relationships.

I think that you are hiding some 'big stuff' behind a lighthearted post...

I think your right you know!