Not sure if I'm posting this in the right place but could do with some advice. Am going back to poxy work in a few weeks after a year off with my ds. He's always been a sociable boy and has been happy to go to most people. When my dm or pil have had him for a few hours he's been fine, and showed no signs of missing me. Im in the process of settling him at nursery. Mon he was away from me for 10 mins, tues-30 and weds 40 mins. He's not batted an eyelid when I've done the "mummys going now, love you see you soon" bit, has been fine when I've left and although he smiles and puts his arms out for me when I get back he really doesn't seem arsed if I'm in the room or not. I'm worried he's not securely attached to me. When he was born I had nasty baby blues and bf probs (although he was mixed fed til 8m) and am worried we didn't bond properly or something because I was exhausted, scared of him etc. (it was only for a weekend and my pil were ace and helped us all. By Monday I was ok).
I'm honestly not being a humblebrag here, I'm worried that he doesn't love me. Saddest sad face ever.