Coping with 2 under 2....

[KnockedUpMell]

My DS turns 1 in a few days and I am pg with DC2! Just 5w so early days yet but I am already having panic attacks worrying about how I'll cope.. DS was a nightmare. He had reflux and cried almost non stop for the first 3 months. He hardly slept at all. However my mum came to help out almost daily for a few months to help out and that was great.. I'm not sure she'll be able to do the same this time round.
DS is stil bf and co-sleeping. He is a terrible sleeper still unless he spends all night on the boob. We are attempting some form of sleep training with DH doing all night time care for a few nights a month (really this is because I am back at work and have to do night shifts), and DS sleep is improving a little. I'm hoping it will get better as he gets older and gets more accustomed to night time care from DH.
I don't really want to stop bf or co-sleeping as I miss my DS so much when I'm at work and it's lovely to have our night time snuggles. But I'm wondering how we'll manage to have 4 of us in the bed and I'm a bit stressed out at the thought of tandem bf at bedtime. I hate DS doing acrobatics when he bf and can see that getting much worse if he has to position himself around DC2. I'm so stressed out about this I'm even considering not bf... But would feel too guilty about bf one child but not the other.
Should I look at part time nursery for DS? He goes to playgroups 3 times a week anyway but I don't know if I'll be able to take him plus the little one... Sigh.
Please tell me it's going to be ok.

It's going to be ok! Well, eventually, anyway.
DS was 13 months when I fell pregnant with DD, still bf to sleep and co-sleeping some nights. Absolutely terrible sleeper (he's only just sleeping through now, at 2.11)
I was worried about bf too, though in my case I didn't really want to tandem feed. In any case DS stopped of his own accord at 16 months, which I was happy but very sad about at the same time.

Remember that this baby isn't your DS- just because you had a bad time during his early months it doesn't mean it'll happen again. I was terrified before DD was born, as DS had been such a Velcro baby, who see med to feed constantly for the first 6 months. DDwas so easy in comparison. She sleeps, will be held by anyone, and has been happy to entertain herself from an early age. Also a second baby is easier because you know what to expect.

It will be really, really hard, and some days you'll wonder why on Earth you had another. The first few months will be exhausting, but it'll be worth it in the end.