Help.

[ThePoorMansBeckySharp]

I am horrified. My dd was playing up at bedtime. I saw red and pulled her up to a sitting position, hard, by yanking on the thick plastic necklace around her neck. It has made a mark on the back of her neck (she is ok).

I don't know what made me lose control, I am just horrified and terrified there is someting wrong with me. What have I done?

We are human! You got frustrated - she got a bit of rough handling and she is fine - you are feeling guilty - normal. What would not be good was if this had happened and it hadn't bothered you very much and you did it again, and again and again. YOUR self check mechanism has kicked in to regulate yourself. We ALL loose it at some point!! Don't beat yourself up. X

Thank you so much for your kind words. I feel like throwing up, I feel so terrible.

What is she doing now? Bet she does not even remember! Have you had a good cup of tea yet this morning? The last thing she will want is to pick up vibes from a guilt ridden stressed out mum this morning!! Take a deep breath, forgive yourself and shelve it! Plan to do something nice with her today :)

The very fact you are upset shows you are a good Mum. I screamed right in my DS1's face and when he was only 16 months old. I was disgusted with myself. I have never forgiven myself, nor repeated it. He can't even remember and he is 5 now. He is confident, happy and affectionate, but I have never forgiven myself.

Heat of the moment, stress, being pushed to the limit- all common when trying to raise children.

As Nearlycooked said- if you didn't feel bad and kept doing this, then there'd be a problem. As a one off that has left you shaken up, I think your children are in very good hands with you and you are human, not a robot.

I cuffed dd round the head earlier. I asked her many many times to get out of the car. She was pissing around treading on the centre console thing. I shouted and grabbed her, she screamed in my face and I cuffed her. I then walked away from the car (locked it) as frankly I just wanted to smack her again. I went back to her after a minute. Luckily dh took over st that point.

I feel fucking dreadful (just coming off antidepressants too). She had a sleep and later on she was absolutely fine. I did say sorry etc. I wish I'd had the foresight to get her to sleep before things got do bad. She's 4 btw.