Boo Hiss! Back to work after a year tomorrow and feeling really down!

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Gonna miss my girlie!

Anyone else in the same boat? x

I will be on Thursday :( Hope it goes well for you!

Yes in a couple of weeks. But its fourth time round for me so i'm used to it.

I know that moment you've dropped them off at childcare and feel all emotional. Then you jump on the train and can't help feeling a sense of excitement that you're 'free' as in no buggy's to push and nappies to change. yes i miss them during the day, but i do also enjoy the 'me' time i get from going to work. I'm fortunately only working parttime. What about you?

Yes, i'm hoping that feeling of freedom will override it, I like popping into town shopping leaving dd with DH, not having to negotiate buggy around shops etc.

Luckily I am only working mon/tues/wed, but as dd goes to bed at 6.30 I will only see her for about half an hour on those days.

I used to suffer from panic attacks quite badly a number of years ago and had to get counselling which really helped, its taken alot of stern talking to myself to keep in positive mindset and not to go down that route again.

good luck for thursday Oblivious, and for in a couple of weeks Hattie

Aww i'm sure you'll be fine!

Who will be looking after your dd? It helps if you know already that she'll be settled and then i promise you, keep yourself busy and you'll appreciate it. I know i'd often get to the end of a busy day and feel guilt ridden that i hadn't thought much about the dc's!

Luckily DH will be having her on mon and wed mornings and then she will go to nursery from 12 til 6. Tuesdays are daddy days, DH has lists everywhere, I have put 3 outfits out for him, dinners are all sorted, I will worry a bit because he can be very forgetful.

I think I just worry that I will miss her, and she will miss me too.

Also, I worry about other things like being useless at work if she's poorly and keeps me up all night, will have to cross that bridge when we get to it I suppose.

How about you, will you be going back full time?

Ah thats lovely that she's mostly with your dh, so relief for you that you won't be leaving her in a strange environment.

i did work fulltime for a couple of years and dp was in charge at home. I remember being extremely worried about how he'd cope with the 3 we had at the time, having never been at home with them before. And i did start organsiing everything for him, but quickly i realised i didn't need to and actually i think the children had a fab time with him (they seemed a little disappointed when i informed them daddy was going to work now and mummy would be back at home!).

So to answer your question no this time i'll only be working parttime, and i'll have 2 with a childminder and 2 in school, so i've just to cross fingers they settle at childminders otherwise i will have the guilt thing.

You'll get good at 'looking intelligent and busy' even if really you're body is screaming take me back to bed!

I'm going back three days and DS is going to a childminder. We've been doing settling in for the past few weeks and he did a full day last week so I'm happy that he'll be fine. I feel lonely to the pit of my stomach though, never felt so 'empty' in my life :(

I'm lonely when he's there I mean, not right now...

It's sad you feel that way oblivious, do you have a dp/dh to talk to?

Day 1 didn't go well, got there all happily, then half an hour later got texts and voicemails from dh saying dd keeps being sick! Am now home waiting to see if continues to be sick as have been advised to take her to GP if she does . She looks really sorry for herself.