My 20mo dd is amazing, I am very lucky to have a gorgeous loving dp, supportive family, dc2 on the way, but I spend so much time breaking down, getting stress out,uncontrollably.
Dd is going through a very difficult phase at the moment,sooo clingy,unless her grandparents are here, she wants constant attention,i can't do any house work, cooking etc without her screaming to be picked up. I can't hold her for very long as she's heavy, on to of my pregnant tummy. She screams when I change her nappy, she's hardly eating anything. To go out anywhere is such an effort, getting her dressed,me dressed,packing bag etc, we are usually late for playgroup,although we often don't make it out as the tears and effort are too much!
She never used to be this sensitive. The thing is, I am so over sensitive, especially at the moment with all the pregnancy hormones, she must pick up on that. I think I do well to keep it together most of the time in front of her or anyone, but inside I'm raging. I feel sooo guilty, I wish I was stronger, but to be honest, I think I still struggle with the fact I'm not my own person anymore, my freedom is lost. I'm so utterly in love with my dd, I just can't handle it when she's unhappy! I go to pieces. I'm also concerned about it getting worse when I have 2 children, in only 4 months!!
Sorry for the long rant, don't feel I have anyone to talk to who will understand!