Feeling low/terrible/angry/upset/numb

[Dozeyland]

Hi all,

Was having a lovely morning with DD, but then all of a sudden it just changed then it turned into tears, tantrums, shouting and tears. She's asleep now (i think that was the cause) but I feel terrible for not being "strong enough" in the current situation we are in. (some of you ma have read)

I feel so upset/angry/depressed/and numb deep down inside because DP has been snatched away from us. When we are busy with playgroups/meeting friends etc we deal ok as we are busy. but had no plans today as such. was waiting to hear from SIL but then DD just got so upset/clingy/over tired. and I shouted at her as when i was with her she was fine, as soon as i leave the room she got upset. I know she's clingy some days since DP went. but 95% of the time shes fine (when we're busy)

I took her up for a nap (which i should have just done 30mins before hand instead of trying to multi-task and do stuff that i could've done when she was asleep. being 24weeks pregnant makes my hormones all up in the air as it is, and i just feel like a TERRIBLE mum for not "understanding" why she was upset and for shouting at her. she's only 15months. I just hate myef for being in such a low place, I'm just hurting so much deep down. i cant stop crying, and just find it hard to cope when we have the odd day like today (odd occasion when we're not doing anything)

Sorry for my moan on here, probably the wrong place but i just needed to write.

I love her so much and i hate e hought of her feeling like mummy is mad at her, im not. i'm just an emotional wreck at the moment. I hide it most days, but when i feel stressed - i just feel so down?

DP has been snatched?.... You mean he's walked out? If you're struggling emotionally you have to expect that sometimes your temper will get frayed, your behaviour erratic and your judgement impaired. Doesn't make you a terrible mother - just human. Things will get better as time goes on and you adjust to the new situation, but when people say 'be kind to yourself' this is what they mean. Be realistic about what the early days of a relationship break-up do to you emotionally rather than setting too high a bar and expecting to be a calm and controlled paragon of jolliness. If you need the support of friends and family, ask for it rather than trying to cope entirely solo. Find ways to articulate your feelings rather than hiding them all the time. If you really can't stop crying and think you're tipping over from 'hurt' into 'depression' talk to a GP.

Your 15mo won't remember being shouted at, I guarantee.

No he's in prison for a very tragic accident. i've posted on here before about it...we're very much in love but we both feel like our hearts have been ripped out

Sorry, I don't know your back-story. Stress, wherever it originates, is a very real problem which can be physical as well as mental. The same advice applies therefore about accepting help and giving yourself some leeway. I'd add, try to find areas of your life, however small, where you can feel like you're in complete control. Often the most destructive part of a stressful experience is when you feel that you're totally at the mercy of events.