Aaaaaargh :(
I was halfway through my OU degree (maths), and then it all went a bit pear shaped this year. A lot of stress at home due to DH being signed off work (prolapsed disc - it's been 15 months so far), I've managed to get a lovely PT job which is fab but studying was too much with looking after DH and DCs. Cue tears and tantrums from me, and I took a break by dropping out of that course.
Due to some weird rule though, I couldn't make the break any longer, and I had to choose a course. I've changed to an Open degree, but I'm wobbling (hence I can't sleep) - I'm really excited about the courses I've chosen (child development, then 2 English lit courses) and they should be fine for my long term plan of primary PGCE (local unis I looked at say you don't need a core subject degree if you can show the modules are still relevant - mine will mostly be maths and English), but I'm scared people will think I'm a flake even if I get a good result in the end.
I just wish I wasn't a jack of all trades, is all. I was such a geeky kid, I was good at everything except science. Why can't I be in love with just ONE subject, and actually know what I want to do! Whatever I chose I would be upset at missing the rest. I have really missed writing essays for example. And I know it's a stupid reason to be worried but I am worried people will think I'm not good at anything because I haven't stuck to one subject the whole way through.
DH is being annoyingly positive about it, but he thinks far too much of me anyway, and actually I just want to tell him to shut up, what does he know anyway!
Sorry for the ramble. 
Just very frustrated with myself, I know that whatever I do right now will result in a battle with myself