Was reading with ds (8yrs) last night and we had a nice cuddle and a chat (tbh we haven't done this for a while what with the lead up to xmas).
Anyway he said he wanted to ask me something and looked really worried. He then said he felt like he had been born into the wrong family and did I love him, honestly. I just burst into tears and couldn't stop. He then started to cry and I just felt awful. I reassured him that mummy loved him very much and always has and always will.
He said he was sorry that he was messy. I said I know that I do get s bit stressed (not overly, honest) when they make a mess as they do make loads but it didn't really matter. It was only mess and easily clears up.
What worried me the most was that he felt he didn't feel part of the family. I always put my kids first and do everything for them. Tell them I love them everyday and cuddle, kiss them whenever I can. They are my top priority.
I can't help feeling like I have done something wrong. I try my very best but am not perfect. We also have a dd with mild sn and she does take up quite a lot of my time so not sure if this is also a factor.
Ds is very sensitive and has had lots of late nights. However I can't help feeling so upset.
Am going to make an extra special effort to give him more 1 to 1.
I just really needed to talk about it. Thanks xxx