I lashed out at my toddler and am disgusted with myself

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I am normally quite happy with life and have a loving dh and two wonderful children

However recently I have been feeling exhausted and a bit low. It culminated at the weekend with an awful incident where I lashed out at my 2 year old dd. I took her out for a walk and she screamed and screamed because she doesn't like the wind. Understandable since the gales we had. Something just snapped and I picked her up by her coat and shoved her in her pram quite hard. I then picked up her cuddly toy and shoved it in her face, my hand caught her head and left a faint bruise

This has never happened before and my dh whilst not condoning it, says I should forgive myself and move on. That I didn't intend to hurt her. However on some level I know I did want to hurt - not her specifically. I lost control and lashed out but it was not her fault. Now I am eaten up with guilt and feel like a monster. She is okay, I know she didn't really understand as I have never even so much as smacked before.

I just needed to talk to someone, anyone. No one in real life seems to admit to losing it. I don't know, if I get a flaming I deserve it. I just hoped I was not the only one, that there isn't something seriously wrong with me. I adore my dd, we have a lovely bond. I also have a 5year old ds whom I love dearly.

Good evening.
I know this is a very old thread but I was so grateful for it tonight. I lashed out at my 18 month old daughter this evening after she had tested my patience all evening. I smacked her and shouted at her and the look of shock on her face has left me wracked with guilt. I’m currently pregnant so have come off my medication (for adhd and depression) and I have struggled today to deal with her. She’s an amazing lovely little girl but can be hard work as she is so full on. Not stopped crying since I put her to bed. Hormonal. I can’t forgive myself. I feel like the worse person in the world and like I don’t deserve her. I have sworn to never lose my temper again with her like I did today.

Currently hiding in my bedroom while my toddler has a tantrum. Could quite easily launch that little fella. Been trying to get ready to go out and he seems to sabotage every effort.

I currently feel like this :( my dd is nearly 2 going on 10! I know this is an old post but it really has given me a lot of encouragement. I've lost my temper with dd and shouted at her. I honestly feel so guilty. It's a constant battle to get dressed, undressed, into the car seat etc. I feel sometimes like I'm losing my mind! She's the most beautiful and intelligent child and I am so grateful to have her in my life, but parenting is hard lol. I feel so bad when I lose my temper, I feel like I'm a bad mum. I'm just so glad to have came across this thread as I now know that people do feel the same.

Thank you for this thread. I’m a new mom and feeling exhausted and a bit depressed (post natal maybe) I didn’t harm baby but I was rough after 2/3 hours of high pitch screaming. I feel the guilt eating me up but knowing I’m not on my own and I’m not a monster helps relieve some of the upset. I’ve promised my LO if I get to that point I’ll walk away I’ll have a breather and remind myself she isn’t screaming to annoy me.

thank you for your help. I know this threat hasn’t been used for a while but my goodness I think it’s just saved me.

Definitely forget and move on I have had a few of these moments with my DS it’s normal we get exhausted and sometimes they are a handful to deal with tbh.

I slapped my oldest one once, at about the same age. They’d test the patience of a saint at that age, forgive yourself and learn not to do it again.

Finding my 3 year old utterly exhausting and relentless at the moment.
I am a mum of 2 and my son had his moments but nothing like my daughter. She really can be savage.
When she is good she is absolutely amazing, so so funny, sassy and loveable but sadly the whinging and screaming and power struggles are becoming more and more.

we are currently trying to potty train, it’s been months now and she knows how to wee on the potty but some days she seems to deliberately wee everywhere and will poo in her pants or all over my sons bedroom floor.

I am at the end of my tether and feel so drained with it all. She also fights so hard not to go to bed and even had tantrums in the middle of the night if her doll isn’t facing the right way.

at bedtime, I’ve lost my temper with her a few times now. It seems no matter how playful I am with her she still kicks off. I try so hard but sometimes gets to the point where I just scream at her and pick her up forcefully. I feel so so guilty for it and end up crying for the rest of the night feeling so low about it.

I don’t know if anyone has any tips for toddlers that won’t comply but if you do please share.
I want to be a great mum for her and not a shouty angry mum. It makes me so sad because I love her so so much! I’m just so exhausted with it.

S