Well ds2 has got a place at the Uni daycare so I suppose I had better submit my application form now - hadn't I?

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I have been swanning round telling everyone I am going to go back to Uni next year to do a part time Post Grad Diploma in my original degree subject, I have a very nice Prof who says she will be delighted to be my supervisor, after only 3 informal meetings and now the Uni creche has called me to say that there is a Friday place for ds2 starting next academic year (february over here) and that I can take him in for a few visits and then start leaving him for full days.

I am overwhelmed, not least because it is all seeiming so easy but because I am really scared that someone will suss that I still have my head in the playdough box and have no reall grasp on the outside world - been very fulfilled SAHM for 5 years - and that I can't really concerntrate on anything too wordy for more than 90 minutes wiht out getting a headache.

I mentioned to dh only the other day that I was thinking of applying in to start in the second half of the year instead, putting it off for 6 months as it all seems a bit too growup and I am nervous everyone will see through me, that when the subject is opened up for lively debate in the lecture theatre I will only be able to say "Dora the Explorer" and " hurry up and find your shoes or we'll be late for playgroup"

Just wondering did anyone else feel a big hesitant and fraudulent before they went back to study?

Go for it - you'll amaze yourself. I went back to finish a part-time MBA when dd was about 6 months - not quite the same as you I know but I did feel a complete nappy brain. I was really daunted at having to produce a research dissertation, but I did and passed quite respectably. I always felt in the back of my mind that I winged it and passed because they felt sorry for me; but I know rationally that I did bl@@dy well under the circs. Your brain will grind back into action more quickly than you think and it will be so stimulating. And you'll learn all sorts of new grown-up words.

thanks franke
well done for getting your MBA with a very small child

Thanks. Another 3 letters after my name that I'll never use, and they cost me 1000s Also meant to say I've felt a fraud throughout my brushes with academia. But no-one ever susses, presumably 'cos they're all frauds too.