Just having a major meltdown.
Been abroad due to DH's job, it coincided with my mat leave so that was handy in as much as I didn't have to take a career break and I can just walk back into my old job in the Summer. We've done a stint in the USA a few years ago also.
I spent the whole time abroad dreaming about being back in the UK, spending time with family, friends, the countryside, the t.v even the shopping!
A fortnight after being back in the UK I feel like we've taken a massive backwards step in life, I don't feel at home, I don't want to go back to work, the relationships with my friends isn't as I remember. Now I'm thinking I do want to go abroad again.
DH has said he'd happily never spend another day in the UK and wants to live in USA, my current stance is 'we're not moving abroad again', but now I think I'm changing my mind.
Truth is I don't know what I want, or where to find it, and part of me feels irritated that my DHs job dictate (and therefore DH) is dictating where we're going to be - some feminist principles maybe? This is taking up so much of my thoughts and tears. How the hell do I organise my thoughts and feelings and come to a conclusion?