Hate today, big time :(

[SeaShellsFiringUpTheQuattro]

I have an 8 week old monster feeding LO and a screaming 2.1 toddler.

I am so fucked off with being hit/having things thrown at me/the house destroyed/LO being hit.

I am so fed up of my over tired toddler who is throwing rages qt the slightest thing.

And I am sooooooo fucked off with my parenting today. I have shouted at him, put him in time out, had to take the cot side off as he was climbing (and falling out) so he didn't nap, and let him fall as he was collapsing in a tantrum but he fell and hurt his nose.

I truly feel today like I've ruined my toddler and am an awful mum. I feel like a total shit. Shattered despite dh helping in the mornings. Too much cbeebies and despite having been out loads today toddler is still bored stiff.

I want to shut the door and walk away :(

Sorry I'm ranting, really had enough.

Awww seashells, sounds shit. Sorry about your night. Sleep deprivation is a killer. Is the early waking regular? Have you asked for advice on how to tackle it?

Not much help now, but it really does get easier quickly. I have 20 months between my two and those early days were tough. My ds has always been en early riser- today he was up at 5 which isn't unusual. He is 3.6 now. His little sister is now 21 months and 'out sleeps' him most nights. Once your dd starts sleeping it will seem much easier regardless of your son's indecent wake up time!

Don't stress about Cbeebies, do what it takes to get through the day at the moment.

One thing I do regret (with the benefit of hindsight) is not starting ds in nursery earlier. He never went anywhere without me until he was 3 (and got free sessions), but in retrospect by 2 and a half he was more than ready to be doing something without me (and me without him!). DD's name is on the waiting list and she will start at 2.5.

Oh and another thing, I tried dropping DS's nap in an attempt to make him stay in bed longer, it didn't work! He simply only needs 10 hours in a night. So, I got in to the routine of making sure both babies napped at the same time so i could get some sleep during the day. Sometimes it worked, sometimes it didn't, but definately worth a try.
Sleep deprivation is horrid, my dh is away at the moment and I have been on night and early morning duties, even nowadays when wakings are short and managable, it's still knackering! You have my full sympathy!

Had to post as I have two DDs with a similar age gap (15 months) only mine are 3 and 4 y o now.

I remember feeling sooo frustrated at general toddler antics, and being tired because DD2 didn't sleep (for 22 long months, gah!) and just getting angry at the drop of a hat. Dh was working away at the time and I was on my own with them so I put them in nursery for a couple of mornings a week when DD2 was six months old. I felt horribly guilty at the time but in retrospect it was the right thing to do, having a baby & toddler is really full on and you do need to take time out somehow.

It does get better though. In a couple of years they will be able to feed themselves, go to the toilet on their own, and play together and so you won't need to entertain them all the time :)

What time does ds go to bed seashells? I ask as when my ds was around that age he was gettin up at 5am but was not napping and was so overtired that he was in bed at 5.30pm, so was a vicious circle.

We eventually had to gradually keep him up later which was hard but eventually he started sleeping later in the mornings.

I was you a year and a half ago and was in tears daily. There is almost 2years between my two and ds started hitting dd the day she was born...

The 1st 4 months were so so hard but they (at 3.8 and 20mo) are now a joy (most of the time!)

scouser- Ikwym.

Had long talk with dh and both feel better. Ds is so lovely, but he is intensely lovely and intensely stroppy. Most days I cope, but the last two I haven't.

Dd2 and I are cuddled up hiding in bed!

He was sorted-1.5hrs sleep, bed no worries 7, wakes at 3ish and resettles on his own, then wakes 5-6.30am. It's gone tits up the last few days-he won't even nap!

It's soooo good to read about people with small age gaps a couple of years on!

DD1 has been going through teething hysterics big time these last couple of days (she only has 5 teeth at 17 months and each one has come with a month of misery) and DD2 is suddenly really resisting sleep. It's so relentless and so hard.

Cue my (childless) sister telling me I'm so negative and such a martyr. Words fail me.

Ooooh your sister wins the insensitive comment prize!

I fell out with the lifts in debenhams today. They took too long and always had people in them. My rational being has gone

Loosingmymind-it's good to hear survivor stories,'although your name concerns me...surely not child induced?!