Hi, I had a ERPC for a mmc last Wednesday and feel worse toady for some reason. Found it so difficult to drag myself out of bed at 6.30am and deal with daily grind with my nearly 3 year old and 18mth old. I am so distracted with my own disappointment and self pity that I am not really available to my DC I already have. I feel terrible for mourning my lost 3 DC when i already have 2 wonderful DC to enjoy and I am not. Was struggling a little before mmc as felt concerned about coping with 3 - although this is what i planned. I have had days of distraction before but today already at 8am I am counting the hours until i can paul the duvet over my head and black it all out again. My kids need me. No help around. DH obsessed with work. MIL and mum useless - friends all have kids, jobs, pets etc