Aaaarrrgghhhhhh!!!!!!!

[vicimelly]

I am having a horrendous night, and I am so fed up, I feel like just giving up and leaving right about now.
I am due to take dd to Disneyland Paris in the morning, I have saved so hard and gone without for months and months to afford this, dd has no idea we're going it is a big surprise.
Tonight though she has turned into some kind of devil child, and I just can't deal with her any more. It started with her not wanting to go to bed, normal complaining! which then escalated to tantrums..which was quite shocking for me as she has never been one for tantrums, this is probably only the second time it's ever happened. So we had full on screaming, banging, kicking walls etc...I ignored her completely, when she'd calmed down I went in to her and she'd totally trashed her bedroom, she'd stripped off her bedding and actually torn it in anger , all her toys are all over the place, a lot of them broken.
She had calmed down when I went into her so I talked to her about what she'd done, explained how naughty it was, how she'd broken her toys and couldn't play with them any more etc etc.
Anyway put her in my bed as her bed had no bedding, settled her down and she seemd ok.
Then 10 mins later had to go in to her as she was shouting her head off, she'd taken the sheet off my bed! I have no idea where the obsession for stripping beds came from!! lol and she'd taken her nappy off and smeared poo all over my mattress, and my bedroom walls
She has NEVER done anything like this before, I have no idea what's going on with her. I absolutely lost it with her, I don't think I've ever been so angry and am feeling really guilty for shouting at her like that now, but at the same time I am exhausted with her and am loathe to take her away after tonights performance. I'm sooooo annoyed and sad that it's taken me so long and so much effort to get to take her to Disney and then she does this.
I feel like giving her a hug because I lost it with her but at the same time don't want to because I'm so angry with her.
Has anyone got any words of wisdom on how to deal with this, on how to not be so angry with her so we can have a nice holiday together???
Oh she's four and a half by the way (she's incontinent , hence the nappy)

oh vicimelly! sounds awful!
just remember... she doesn't know about disneyland, she isn't doing this to spite you and she can't appreciate how much you have put into this trip for her.

is it possible that she has eaten something that could have triggered this?

Maybe she can sense something is happening, (i.e the holiday) and she will be back to herself in no time.

I really hope so Waterfalls! I really hope this is not the beginning of a phase of being devilchild! another night like tonight and I think I would just run away!
I did think that she might have eaten something Starlover, as all of this is so out of character for her, but she hasn't eaten a thing out of the ordinary, she hasn't had any sweets or sweet things.

She seems to have calmed down now, well it's quiet anyway, I'm hiding in the living room for fear of what I might find if I go in again! lol
I am going to get a very large glass of wine now

wine is good!
as you say, it is out of character for her so perhaps something is bothering her. or maybe she is just having one of those days?
i can totally understand how and why you reacted like you did... i'd have donet he same! especially witht he poo!!!!!

is she asleep now? it's almost a shame there isn't another day before disneyland so that you have time for a talk about broken toys etc!

but anyway, you go and relax and i hope you both have a really great time away!

oh my god, would have a heartattack if I walked in and DS had smeared poo all over my bedroom! Just have a large glass of wine, some chocolate and think of all the fun/hugs/kisses you two will share at Disneyland!

Thanks everyone, am feeling much better now
dd called me about 10 mins ago, and I was dreading what I'd find! went into her and she was crying and telling me that she was sorry that she made me sad and she didn't want me to be sad!! So we've had lots of hugs and reassurances now, and she's settled down to sleep.
I have a nice big glass of wine so all is well in our house again!